The importance of reflection

While we would all like to turn back time and change things past, I realise I cannot, so have to act now in the present to alter the future to my suiting!!!

Under Pressure I was, however despite all I followed some excellently sound advice and went away for the whole of Saturday, I went to the New Forest and whilst enjoying the Ponies, the Shetlands and their fouls and the four free range Donkeys who casually strolled into a village I had the chance to reflect.

And I am glad I did a few points I mulled and I finally came to the conclusion I had to change something.

The points mulled are as follows;

1) I have not still fully recovered physically from being so incredibly ill at Christmas (I feel so drained)

2) I have lost 1 month with my daughter home from Studying properly

3) I have lost 1 month (minimum) to illness

4) I have lost 1 and a half months with stupid inept council workers trashing my home under the banner of 'improving' it (thus adding to the stress prolonging my Illness)

5) I have at least 1 month to go of rebuilding my home from the aboves damage

Within this scenario I have to point out this is all time I should have been studying and studying hard, I currently am fully up to date with my Rundblicks German course having submitted my T.M.A.04 a few days prior. And I am ready to a point for the German G.C.S.E.

As such I have no worries at all about these language courses, shamefully I cannot say the same about MST121, to which I am now too far behind to play catch up!

As such tomorrow I will be asking the O.U. if I can 'interrupt' the study of this course to begin again hand in hand with MST221 in February (as it should be done) thus giving myself a fighting chance of taking on board the maths involved and thus actually 'beginning anew' as it should have been bar the above listed problems.

This I feel is the only way to :

a) Re-empower myself regards this subject.

b) Stop the decline of my health from the simply stress of playing catch up.

c) Stop any potential 'disheartened' feelings developing around the study I am currently committed to.

d) re-instate my study time table without interruption (the biggest problem I feel so far)

I naturally feel a bit dejected by having to choose this option, however situations really dictate I must follow this course of action to deliver the very best educationally and thus receive the grades reflecting this, with more importantly the actual Maths involved being learned by myself actually getting into this head of mine, something currently NOT happening.

Onwards and upwards with a slight pause then. Not the best outcome, but certainly the most sensible.

68% first mst121 result

If this was a race I would give myself a second place given the effort applied over Christmas to simply ensuring this was done .

Well I am pleased really, it is a pass mark though this does not get counted towards my end result

68% is better than I expected so I can now only study study study and try to get better next time

With any luck I will, however if I do not I still pass the course which is the ultimate goal

onwards and upwards

Hoorah A TUTOR boooo resides in Cambridge so no tutorials for me from her

NU and with any luck the OLD LABOUR party are dead, or at the very least on its last legs thankfully, roll over you sick diseased pile of worthless scum and allow the country to regain its dignity with a brand new pro English Conservative Government

Hopefully soon we will again be proud to be English then British!

Yup finally after some anxiety I have been assigned a tutor, sadly my Tutorials will now have to be in Bishops Stortford with a different tutor as mine is simply too far away to attend.

Oh well I guess they teach the same Course MST121 so it must be similar tuition.

No other news beyond I am about to finally submit my T.M.A. for this course, plus I am slowly learning Math Cad which seems initially to be user friendly.

Updates as and when......................

Back to basics maths wise

Mwhaa hah hah hah Your brain has fill too many of it's cells, shall we count them, ONE hah hah hah......TWO hah.......etc........Back to basics actually works.

Yes I am not ashamed to admit that whilst attempting the next T.MA. submission for MST121 I actually had to start looking in what amounts to children's books for early stage maths G.C.S.E.

Because I once again found out that while we do cram our brains full of information, sometimes the recalling of it leaves a lot to be desired.

Yes today I actually sat not an hour ago looking at the bright purple coloured SohCahToa triangles designed to capture children's attention, but again I felt no shame at this as we all at times do well to return to the basics, the essence if you will of what we mean to keep in our heads.

As such I via this managed to finish off another part of the T.M.A. and now through it feel more confident in dealing over all with triangle related maths again

Maybe no big deal to many, but a huge step for me to say I feel confident about anything

Onwards and backwards but definitely upwards

Maths two sixths complete

Quite possibly one of the greatest movies made that appeals to my sense of butchering Persians and their blasphemous death cultist descendants, we need a latter 300 to show our lazy liberal ineffective and weak western world what really must be done!

Yes the TMA MST121 10 has questions 1 and 2 (of 6) answered to the best of my ability, I aim to complete the rest towards the end of the week

I look forward to submitting the final draft however I as of yet do not know who exactly my tutor is, nor do I know any tutorial dates

I hope this information comes forth soon.

I am 100% caught up on all the German work from Rundblicks to the GCSE and I confess to being tired playing catch up with it all, however it is now done, I just have to keep on top of these things and pray to god I get no more illness please.

Update on the eczema, I had to attend the Doctors today as it played a merry dance of itching and then hurting most of last night, I slept pitifully as a result of this, hence the trip to the doctors.

The end result is I have a steroidal cream plus a moisturizer to keep the skin obviously moisturized, I am hopeful it should be cleared up within a week, the Doctor reckons for two at most. We shall see.

No other news to date, updates as and when and onwards and upwards as per usual

Catch up why don't you and so I shall

Todays picture is somebody else's puppy Yorkie Terrier, and it's up because this breed make me smile, be it mine or somebody else's and after the christmas I had I honestly need to smile a bit..................Onwards and Upwards, but look hard at the face of the clown and you may see he is very, very tired!

Tonight heralds my completion after catching up on all my German G.C.S.E. homework.

Was I stressed about falling so far behind? Answer is a resounding yes I was.

However another job completed, Maths to follow on with now, specifically completion of the T.M.A. for MST121. I have till the 25th at the latest allowing for submission to the as of yet undefined Tutor for marking.

Other news is I have my Eczema back, however this is different (Winter itch from the sounds of it) in being I usually have it return under the arm or quite typically on the elbows. This however is something new, an almost straight line of various thickness (ranging from about 2 cm to 20cm) running from the very bottom of my ankle, to about four inches from the groin.

It is also incredibly itchy and so far has been around for three whole days in which I have scratched it red raw and to bleed.

I purchased some anti itching cream from a bemused looking pharmacist who went on to bleat my anti histamines should have prevented such an outbreak and it should not itch so much. Was it really my place to tell him I had head to toe Eczema as a kid and this was just a small glitch given no allergy I have ever had quite fits the norm.

So ok I now have this red raw line of itchy painful blisters which I honestly hate with a passion, however if this is the worst then I can not complain, just keep applying the lotions and hopefully it will go soon god willing!

No other educational updates at this moment but as they come in so shall I update this blog

NOCN Intermediate Certificate in Personal Development

A traditional Father Christmas, thankfully devoid of the Coca-cola added colour. Making it a real Christmas!

Yes today I attended the initial meeting and thus signed up for this course, parting with £25 as I did

It looks like something worthwhile and will make a good edition to my C.V. so I consider it a must have really and thus I shall attempt to attain

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Maths M.S.T.121, Well now I also finally sat down and looked at the relevant parts sent to me recently.....I believe I shall devote next tuesday evening to exploring it fully with a view to making the initial start towards the first T.M.A. and C.M.A
This must be scheduled properly as I have the Youngest Daughter returning home from Uni as well so studying space is thus limited but I must forge on as I have more than these to hand in in January 2008

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Rundblicks must also take priority over some other events, after checking the calender I am one thema behind and again have submissions for January

it is time To organize and prioritize I think, I shall naturally get my Birthday out of the way before I start

onwards and despite January now being busy study wise....Upwards

P.s. I have just found out upon completion of my German certificate at the O.U. I can officially add letters to after my Name, thus I shall be blah blah CGO

How brilliant that made me feel I cannot seriously describe, however it is a nice potential future I feel

The very last I.T.Q. ever, ever well till the next one

Latest visitor to My Garden, Welcome a very small but extremely cute Hedgehog currently known as Harriot.

Ok yes today of all days was suppose to be the very last I.T.Q. however slight glitch in so far as the 'project part' being that there was four small minor things that required fixing as to meet the as of yet unquantified standard that is being set by erm, well MY work inclusive of MY project


Seemingly I am setting the standard as the staff have never marked one before and as such I think considering they keep holding it up to others to see they are setting a very very high standard indeed

Fortunately in an hour and a half (they assumed four) I 'fixed' all the minor things and now have a fully 'fulfilling their criteria to the letter' Project

And hopefully the very next I.T.Q. will be the honest to goodness last one ever, IF not I guess the next one will be.


Other news, Today arrived my O.U. German course materials

Looks fun

updates as and when, next on the list is my submission of the next and final T.M.A. 04, soon to be followed by the final C.M.A. 45 and that my friends is my MU120 complete (I hope) next Feb for MST 121

Applied for MST 121 maths

Which is the next course on from this one i am doing

If i can pass this current one and of course the next i am eligible for a CERTIFICATE IN MATHS, what that actually means in the real world i have yet to gauge, however it will be something and that is all that matters

after that is obviously other courses and naturally a diploma in maths with an ultimate degree in maths which is the end aim of all this

next course starts January 2008, my current one finished October 2007 which gives me some time off to chill and enjoy Christmas thankfully

updates as usual