The importance of reflection

While we would all like to turn back time and change things past, I realise I cannot, so have to act now in the present to alter the future to my suiting!!!

Under Pressure I was, however despite all I followed some excellently sound advice and went away for the whole of Saturday, I went to the New Forest and whilst enjoying the Ponies, the Shetlands and their fouls and the four free range Donkeys who casually strolled into a village I had the chance to reflect.

And I am glad I did a few points I mulled and I finally came to the conclusion I had to change something.

The points mulled are as follows;

1) I have not still fully recovered physically from being so incredibly ill at Christmas (I feel so drained)

2) I have lost 1 month with my daughter home from Studying properly

3) I have lost 1 month (minimum) to illness

4) I have lost 1 and a half months with stupid inept council workers trashing my home under the banner of 'improving' it (thus adding to the stress prolonging my Illness)

5) I have at least 1 month to go of rebuilding my home from the aboves damage

Within this scenario I have to point out this is all time I should have been studying and studying hard, I currently am fully up to date with my Rundblicks German course having submitted my T.M.A.04 a few days prior. And I am ready to a point for the German G.C.S.E.

As such I have no worries at all about these language courses, shamefully I cannot say the same about MST121, to which I am now too far behind to play catch up!

As such tomorrow I will be asking the O.U. if I can 'interrupt' the study of this course to begin again hand in hand with MST221 in February (as it should be done) thus giving myself a fighting chance of taking on board the maths involved and thus actually 'beginning anew' as it should have been bar the above listed problems.

This I feel is the only way to :

a) Re-empower myself regards this subject.

b) Stop the decline of my health from the simply stress of playing catch up.

c) Stop any potential 'disheartened' feelings developing around the study I am currently committed to.

d) re-instate my study time table without interruption (the biggest problem I feel so far)

I naturally feel a bit dejected by having to choose this option, however situations really dictate I must follow this course of action to deliver the very best educationally and thus receive the grades reflecting this, with more importantly the actual Maths involved being learned by myself actually getting into this head of mine, something currently NOT happening.

Onwards and upwards with a slight pause then. Not the best outcome, but certainly the most sensible.

Under pressure and the worst of news

God Bless my Angels all, but especially Sweep today!!!!

Well let me start with what is important, and that is my Sweep dog being diagnosed with a heart problem that ultimately will shorten his life to about 1-2 years from now.

I am gutted to all ends I would sacrifice all to gain him the time he has just lost and yet I know nothing can change what is to come, tears and there were many are part of the grief and yet I still see him as a happy 'healthy' puppy despite all.

Now all I can do is continue to give him the love I have and hope when he gets to dog heaven he can remember being that loved, God bless him........because he above me deserves that blessing.


Onwards to the OTHER pressure, my workload for Uni and college has taken a massive hit with the denial of time and a place of sanctuary to study from in the form of Council workers (rather Subcontractors) charged with carrying out decent work to a decent level under the good homes scheme.

Needless to say they should be prosecuted under trades description for the shoddy half arsed jobs they have butchered into my home!! Three weeks now is SIX weeks and they still have not completed having to actually return to fix the abortions they have created initially.

If this is the standard of imported workmen and the cheapest native workmen then we need a serious rethink as I am certain trained chimps could have achieved better with less shit involved!!!!!!

Anyway ultimate ending is these labotomised fools have by virtue of denial of access to my books and my study area made me behind in study and submission of work! (thanks you cretins) As such I am yet again playing catch up.

However some light is today I managed to submit T.M.A.04 Rundblicks thankfully, this just leaves the Maths and GCSE work to catch up on.

Fingers crossed for those then, onwards and as always upwards..................

Result for last maths

53%

which considering the headache it gave me is by what I expected to get a huge achievement

So I am happy

My next mission is to complete the next Maths T.M.A., however with the builders in plus the room I study in in total chaos I am concerned as I already have missed out on a vast amount of study time for this due to having to run around fixing all the terrible pieces of work the builders have done to date.

Still onwards and upwards, because frankly I have nowhere else to go. This year it seems has not been productive towards my education so far

But I expect, no I demand that changes and very soon.

Maths T.M.A.01 (ii) done dusted and soon to be gone

Yes I am the super Big Dog for completing the T.M.A., oh yes I am woof!

Yes the nightmare for me is over upon full completion of this T.M.A.

I have had so much external pressure during this single submission I honestly nearly quit the entire maths MST121 course in favor of the easier Languages courses.

But something kept me going, though currently I am so tired I do not know what that something was.

anyway I fear the poor mark I will get for this overall T.M.A. but I will post it up anyway, my wager is around the 40% mark

Any more I will be happy and that's honesty

Still, onwards and upwards regardless.................

Rundblicks Result thank god

St George and the dragon, symbolic perhaps of the struggle of the Great British people against the tide of *vomit* socialist governance across Europe and in our own land which has inevitably lead to so much destruction of all that is unique and thus great in Britain

But like St George......................we will surmount and diminish our enemy, it begins next local election time....and it will not cease till all sycophantic spineless appeasing left wing dirt bags are removed from all walks of power

onwards to victory my brave Britons

Yes I feel despite the increasing difficulty surrounding the Maths, that I am still constant in my German, thus my latest Rundblicks result is 84%, meaning to date in this course I have scored a 93%, 82% and now 84%, I am naturally pleased given my lack of confidence in the speaking element.

onwards and upwards, I have no doubt my next Maths result will pale in comparison but at least I am trying which is everything imo.

Personal Development completed fingers crossed

We shall never surrender, poignant as Nu Labour denied us all democracy by way of a vote over Europe, but we are of sterner stuff than the weak lefties imagine and we shall have our day and our say over this issue, solely because like this great man portrayed, we surely will NEVER SURRENDER to such a notion of denied democracy

Likewise in my person life I shall too never surrender!

Yes Personal Development unit 4 finished today, ready for submission at the beginning of April!

Now anybody reading this may think I am a diligent student getting ahead because I am a swot or something similar, truth be told though I am under pressure re the Maths and two other German courses and now need the Personal Development completed to devote all my efforts to the rest.

I have but 11 days to submit my next TMA 01 ii and it is hard and a half, not that it is not going to be completed, as it is, it is just I have never achieved Maths to this level before, nor in fact tackled such a high level of Maths, at school or college.

Thus I am under pressure a bit, especially considering the work load and prep work for the German G.C.S.E. which has exams only three months away, and the Rundblicks of which I am up to date but in danger of slipping back as I devote the hours to completion of the Maths.

I think I may have taken on too much this year, but I will not surrender I shall proceed doing as always the best I can within reason.

Thus is my status to date. updates as an when.

Onwards, tired but still upwards God willing.

All Submitted last PD number 4 to go

Britannia, Bring her back with the rest stolen and destroyed by the left wing and foreign imports and restore unto Us the Britain we knew and loved so much.

Well I currently have major works occurring at home with the stunning wonder to behold of Bulgarian workers who cannot speak English making all the native English speaking workers very frustrated

but hey ho this is the legacy of the Left wing with imported folks who I dare say can do the jobs, shame they cannot understand what jobs we all need doing

Other less depressing Left wing based news is I am almost up to date with all submissions to all courses having just completed the German GCSE homework I am left with an optional choice to complete and finalise the Personal Development Course by completion of unit 4

This is an option I may take as the Maths and various German courses are incredibly time consuming in reality and I must really devote to them alone

currently await feedback and results for my Maths and German I shall naturally post them up as they come in.

I shall end with a Tommy Cooper Joke as it always makes me smile and today I need it

"I bought my wife a wooden leg for Christmas! It's not her main present, just a stocking filler."

Onwards and Upwards, change only happens when one man decides to make it happen.....I will be that one man, or die trying.

Struggling honestly I am and tragedy in the balkans imo

We aided these Terrorist Muslims and now they own a country they have NO claim to, over Christian Serbs who do

Terrible betrayal and a terrible day for the free west, we should be ashamed aiding in the Jihad to spread Islam globally. Independent Kosovo...never ever in my name

Well first official TMA submitted for my MST121 Maths

and honestly I got question 1 (algebra) and 2 (Maths cad work) but three left me feeling stupid, I get sequences and I get alot of what was contained in the unit, however the unit book simply did not have enough in for me to feel even remotely confident about what I submitted

I have it seems a problem with the last part, but I can ill afford to spend any more time or brain cells on it as I have to yet again keep up with the German (both GCSE and Uni) and the PD course is due soon too

Seems my tutor will have to spend some time explaining and I guess that is what they are assigned for

onwards and though a little beat up but my inability to grasp this section, upwards still

ps Independent Kosovo.....Not in my name will I have a violent once terroristic group of Muslims handed a country for nothing but their ability to out breed those in it

even the blind can see that having an ethnic Albanian group in Kosovo does not give them the right to run any country unless it is Albania, but yet the dhimmi's in the west still think it is ok to aid the Muslims in Europe to fulfill their Islamification of the world quest

Tragic and poor Kosovo with it historic and cultural Serb (Christian) heritage all being wiped out fully now by these Invaders

What a terrible day for us all, and one I fear we shall all pay for in our own lands

More illness, 2008 year of ill health at least for me

Gordy Brown the Stalinist and there is so much truth in this it worries me for the future of our non stalinist nation

What a strange start to this year, two months in and twice I have been ill, I cannot begin to explain that I no longer have time for illness, but my studies are still going ahead to some degree despite all this coughing, hacking and general feeling of sickness.

I have missed yet another Online Lyceum German because simply I was just too ill.

But tonight I have managed to catch up all German GCSE homework (hausaufgaben) and also am two thirds through the Personal development which is due in soon

However I do have to catch up the Rundblicks and get on top of the Maths and I have to do it soon, so fingers crossed I am rid of this damned flu in time for it all.

Nothing else to report but will update as an when......

Maths Done, German Gcse caught up with, Rundblicks up to date

Old Harry Rocks, stunning by all accounts if captured with the sun striking off of it, I shall know maybe this year if I can visit Dorset, and if I do Pictures better than this I hope to capture.

Durdle Door, another place listed to see on my future holiday to Dorset, such amazing beauty created by the elements and rock conditions, is not life just amazing in every single sense?

A simply stunning camera is the S8000, not disimilar from my already beloved S5600 which has stood me in great stead and I shall never be parted from, but what a great upgrade this would make.

With impressive 18X zoom out, Seriously Phallic but seriously quality for wildlife photography for a low end budget, this is definitely the next camera for me.

Is there nothing I cannot do?

Well in all honesty it has been flat out at least four hours a night to play catch up and I feel like it has been a struggle.

So lesson learned is to never let things get so behind again (though not really my fault being ill etc)

But importantly I am now back on track so to speak and shall continue.

Well my youngest returns to her Uni tomorrow and My eldest is finally coming round to maybe doing her own degree in child care or such like, even My Wife is contemplating some form of education to enhance the future prospects of us all.

Thus all is ok (I never say right in case I jinx it all)

Onwards and upwards......the future looks great

Ps. The next camera aimed for is the Fuji S8000 with 18X zoom capabilities (Savings already being reassigned for it)

Simply put it is fantastic and I enclose a picture above to show that aspect of it.

Back to basics maths wise

Mwhaa hah hah hah Your brain has fill too many of it's cells, shall we count them, ONE hah hah hah......TWO hah.......etc........Back to basics actually works.

Yes I am not ashamed to admit that whilst attempting the next T.MA. submission for MST121 I actually had to start looking in what amounts to children's books for early stage maths G.C.S.E.

Because I once again found out that while we do cram our brains full of information, sometimes the recalling of it leaves a lot to be desired.

Yes today I actually sat not an hour ago looking at the bright purple coloured SohCahToa triangles designed to capture children's attention, but again I felt no shame at this as we all at times do well to return to the basics, the essence if you will of what we mean to keep in our heads.

As such I via this managed to finish off another part of the T.M.A. and now through it feel more confident in dealing over all with triangle related maths again

Maybe no big deal to many, but a huge step for me to say I feel confident about anything

Onwards and backwards but definitely upwards

Holger Danske ("Holger the Dane") at rest in the casemate under Elsinore Castle from where he will spring into action when Denmark is in peril. He defeated the Muslim Arabs in the Pyrenees ... and saved the freedom of Europe.

And another example of what we should be doing based upon history.

Updated tonights tutorial for the Personal Development course is now canceled solely from the tutors side as she cannot tonight get into the college

A shame, as I was looking forward to this first tutorial, however it now will free up time for my Maths and maybe some more German

In short making something good from something bad, time well spent

Onwards and as per usual upwards, till next time......

Submitted Maths MST121 CMA 51

Where is the Churchill of our time? To see us back on track to being Great again? All we have is cowards, deceivers and thieves in power these days sadly.

Well that is the first CMA for this maths submitted, this CMA does not count towards the end result, but I have still given it my very best shot and I fingers crossed believe I did not do too badly.

Next submission is the TMA, to which I have after reading ahead realise is going to be

1) time consuming
2) brain straining as it is complex (to me at least)

However I shall do it and submit it within time (all due in for the 30th of this month and the TMA has to be sent)

Two days now and the web site inclusive of my tutors details and tutorials will become available online, I cannot wait to actually begin this in earnest.

Other news is I am also playing catch up on German GCSE homework, plus Rundblicks (in time for the next online which is the 17th) again I am pacing myself with a view to completion of these tasks within a reasonable time frame, I can only do what I can do period.

Onwards and upwards hopefully.

Submitted Rundblicks German TMA02 at last

The uphill battle begins in earnest,

Currently playing catch up with so many things, most noticeably the education related things

as such I am quite proud to say TMA02 Rundblicks is now in, before the dead line thankfully.

I now have to start the Maths, start the Intermediate Certificate In Personal Development and finalise the very last Homework for the GCSE German due in this Tuesday

am I confident? No not really, but I will endeavor to do my best in achieving the needed outcomes

whether I can or not is yet to be shown, but onwards and upwards ......

NOCN Intermediate Certificate in Personal Development

A traditional Father Christmas, thankfully devoid of the Coca-cola added colour. Making it a real Christmas!

Yes today I attended the initial meeting and thus signed up for this course, parting with £25 as I did

It looks like something worthwhile and will make a good edition to my C.V. so I consider it a must have really and thus I shall attempt to attain

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Maths M.S.T.121, Well now I also finally sat down and looked at the relevant parts sent to me recently.....I believe I shall devote next tuesday evening to exploring it fully with a view to making the initial start towards the first T.M.A. and C.M.A
This must be scheduled properly as I have the Youngest Daughter returning home from Uni as well so studying space is thus limited but I must forge on as I have more than these to hand in in January 2008

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Rundblicks must also take priority over some other events, after checking the calender I am one thema behind and again have submissions for January

it is time To organize and prioritize I think, I shall naturally get my Birthday out of the way before I start

onwards and despite January now being busy study wise....Upwards

P.s. I have just found out upon completion of my German certificate at the O.U. I can officially add letters to after my Name, thus I shall be blah blah CGO

How brilliant that made me feel I cannot seriously describe, however it is a nice potential future I feel

Stag in Tatton park which I visited recently, beautiful animals.

Well today brings forth conclusion on the I.T.Q. course with a definitive closure of the course paper work coupled with me signing off the very last piece of required work

one single last visit into the I.T. part of the college for an 'exit' workshop which will take place next Tuesday and it is all done, I have achieved the I.T.Q. and I am very pleased about it

Reckoning is within two to three months I should have my certification, a very pleasing moment I am certain.

ok next closure is the final T.M.A. (04) has been checked, reworked and is currently sat on my desk awaiting special delivery for submission to the tutor for a final mark, this is the second to last piece of the MU120 maths, over the weekend I aim to finalise the last C.M.A. 45 and that is then full closure of that course, I hope I have achieved what was needed, I shall post up as soon as I know

So two great things in one single day

update when C.M.A. is submitted online plus update of mark obtained for both the C.M.A. and T.M.A. as and when I know

Forum Headaches, T.M.A. submission and German

One of Two Badgers I saw whilst at a hide for watching them, simply brilliant creatures and I love them to bits, hence the photo.

It is all go, about two weeks and I abseil down that building

just sat here and hopefully finished my T.M.A. 04 (yup last one) to a degree that lets me pass M.U.120 FINALLY

got yet another 'last' I.T.Q. to complete tomorrow and also tomorrow is my second G.C.S.E.German and the first one last week was spot on, I remembered something at long last

And then onto my forum, what does one do when one is so completely sick to death of witnessing the demise of your land, people and culture to alien and left wing forces that it drains the soul from one

then have those who do not know tell you how it is according to the party line????!!! well for one thing its entrenched me to simply go ahead and join the Conservative party lock stock and barrel and if I can work my way through so I can change something within the framework of politics

thus begins a plan of action fermenting itself in my head even as I type and why not, if smiley toss pot Blair and fat useless turd Prescott plus non entity wishing he was Blair Brown can get into power it only takes the willingness and who knows

Maybe I can see England and Britain returned to the English and British respectively

anyway enough of it all, onwards and decidedly upwards

Tommorow, it arrived

Start Point Lighthouse
which was worth the visit

Me just catching a breather on the way to Start Point Lighthouse, it was a beautiful day out

And lo said the highest of the high, it is good and it was............................


Seriously all is sweet, the blues are past me, the memories of those gone now sated for another year, I step boldly forward and I'm ready for the next chapter of My life


and so here is the update so far

1) Attended Tutorial for Maths now head fully round the things I found hard, I am rolling baby yeah.

2) Second to last I.T.Q. today, all results brilliant and I am just now await my project assessment and we are done, finite, now sit and wait a few months for the cert which I have earned.

3) Not long now till the German G.C.S.E. I can not wait to start using Ich verstehe nicht till the exam....;-D


Anyway the bold move forward and so I am slowly returning to my former self (mentally at least) thus it is no shock that I will be throwing myself with rope off a 120 foot building in the name of charity, abseiling for charity, I could think of nothing else I would have doctors telling me I should not be doing

No fear, except maybe there is just a little, which just equates to me feeling so alive again

Update done, next one as an when C.M.A. 44 due in on the 13th

Next Tutorial for Maths is the 19th

oh yeah positive a go go

Last German and I.T.Q. rolling onwards

Angelic to the last

Well! last German Intermediate today and it was fun with a few refreshers of what we had covered over the last ten weeks plus a little Lemonade and snacks to finish off the last lesson

again brilliantly taught and I look forward to the G.C.S.E. now even more.

Next Certificate will be in the post I am assured

Onwards to the I.T.Q. received my mark for Spreadsheets and I did brilliantly, add in I was also marked excellently for generally computer ability and all is looking great.

Nearly completed the Database component now and in reality three weeks maybe four and I will achieve full completion and another certificate will be on its way

onwards then to full submersing myself into the Maths, which i now hope to be able to give much more attention .

all is sweet in my world then, till the next milestone.............

So near to finishing the Spreadsheets

Latest addition to the visitors list for my garden include Brand New Fresh Out the Box BABY BLUETITS and they are great.

Yup been a busy boy, and am but four pages away from completion of the Spreadsheets part of I.T.Q.

Which is great news as it leaves me just Databases and I have completed the minimum, though if I can I shall endeavour to complete all the components.

Still no news on the Maths T.M.A. though having checked the Diary I can confirm that today was last day to submit, so reality was I submitted well before time and hopefully will hear back soon enough.

Already currently 90% through the next C.M.A. for submission, just got to double check all answers and that will be away too, leaving me free then till the next T.M.A. due for August, so more than enough time to devote to that.

Onwards and upwards yet again


Other news is another fence panel was erected today for the Garden Project, mainly due to some reasonable weather for today, it is not looking that bad thankfully

Next Update as and when I hear something